You might regret what you let slip away, like the geek in the pink - J.Mraz

Well I ain't no geek but you might would regret what you let slip away anyway.

This is gonna be stuck in my brain (and mouth) for an undefined period of time.
It is NOT easy to identify and really digest that the guy you are or were with is actually not that into you.

Each page I read (from the book) is a big kick to my stomach. Distasteful facts but they are true,aren't they?

Let me share with you some pointers from the book.



He's just not that into you if he is not dating you.

• Don't get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he'll do the asking.
• An excuse is a polite rejection. Men are not afraid of "runining the friendship."
• If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.
• Men don't forget how much they like you. So put down the phone.

He's just not that into you if he is not calling you.(My favourite by far)

• If he's not calling you, it's because you are not on his mind. (Tell me how true this is!)
• If he creates expectations for you, and then doesn't follow through on little things, he wil do the same for big things.Be aware of this and realise that he's okay with disappointing you. (Oh wow~Bull eye!)
• Don't be with someone who doesn't do what they say they're going to do.(Sure cos' he never got into doing it anyway despite YEARS!)
• If he's choosing not to make a simple effort that would put you at ease and bring harmony to a recurring fight, then he doesn't respect your feelings and needs.
• "Busy" is another word for "asshole." "Asshole" is another word for the guy you're dating.

100% of men polled said they've never been too busy to call a woman they were really into. As one fine man said, "A man has got to hace his priorities."

A man who likes you wants to spend time with you. And he'll only settle for talking to you on the phone five times a day when he physically can't come to see you.

Missing someone is a sign of a healthy relationshio. Not respectiing your need to have some form of connection with him while he's away IS NOT.

Regardless of his dislike for talking on the phone, he should respect and care for you enough to call you, if only because he knows that it will make you happy.

So fuck it! Fuck it, fuck you.

Anyway that part is all reserved for Jason and I am always disappointed with him, STILL AM!
The fact that after all these years, he is still not doing anything about anything..I have to really learn it that he is just not that into me.

I don't know why am I always excusing him with his 'I am not a phone person' excuse and always the loser that call him first? Yes, LOSER!

I don't know why am I always happy to settle for the lesser from him such as an occasion 'good night dear, I miss you.' and that kinda messages don't even last for good.

I don't know why am I always putting up with his commitments for soccer, for work when it just means his bloody self-interests come on top of me? He never thought of even forsaking any of those for my sake or even just politely ask for my feelings. AND he never makes up for it anyway.

After this breakup, he even has the bloody cheek to point the knife point back to me and hurting me so much that I wish I could die. And he only had that little decency and small guts to SMS me AFTER I contacted him, telling me he is not worth so much of my pain, WITHOUT doing anything about it actually.

It made my blood boils each time I think of all these and fuck it, it still hurts. I don't know why am I always, ALWAYS telling people that Jason is a very nice boyfriend and really still saying so! Why am I so fucking stupid over someone that told me he loved me and still think about me BUT IS NOT DOING ANYTHING to PROVE IT!

Why don't you just come and tell me that you just don't love me no more and actually never really did? Maybe you did but it has long stopped and you didn't realised that?

Yes, time can wear out the passion degree in a relationship but it is up to you to work on it! I don't know and can't recall the amount of times I wanted him to put the calling me as a habit. Be it just a 3 minutes call, call me..talk to me. Is it that difficult?

You are really disappointing me major time! You never work on that initiative which is actually just a natural thing to do.

Busy is really your fucking excuse! Who isn't working? You are just holding 2 jobs at your own accord and no one's forcing you. I don't see you earning that big anyway so what's the point? If you are so busy with work and is a high flyer, I might have excuse you for being BUSY afterall.But what? What? WHAT?

No! Money is not the issue here. It is your attitude and the way you are SUCK BIG TIME!

In the past, I never understand how difficult a phone call can get. In your case, even a SMS is difficult to pine for. I was literally surprised each time I see your message on times I would not expect it. It's like winning a small prize and as a boyfriend for 5.5years, THAT IS NOT SOMETHING YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF!

I often tell my friends what are you so busy with? You are so busy that you have no time to call me to ask about my day, to tell me you miss me BUT has the time to eat, to visit toilet, to login to emails and forward bo-liao promotions, to talk on the phone,to strum the guitar, to watch Jason Mraz on Youtube, and NOW even to login to Facebook to comment on others' photos. Sure anything but to call your girlfriend (ex-girlfriend now..I know). AND HAS THE CHEEK TO TELL ME YOU MISS ME ALL THE SAME.

Jason....FUCK YOU!

You wouldn't know the tears I cried, the nights I could barely sleep, the times I broke down and cried in public. And even that I let you know(which you knew), you DID NOTHING ABOUT IT!

Oh, I know. Your very saint thinkings (Taught by whichever Saint) of "I am not your boyfriend now. I should let you learn to be strong and live a life without me. I don't deserve you. It would better that you hate me and can live on, knowing I don't deserved you." blah blah de blah is making you feel like Jesus huh?

Since you like playing Jesus, why not just go and tie yourself up on a cross altogether and hammer your own hands on it? Might as well look and act like one, don't be a half-fucked shite!

I don't mean to sound like such a bitter bitch but I have every right to be angry about it.

Anyway it is Saturday afternoon now. By the virtue of such a sunny weather out now, I hope you have fun sweating in work now.

Despite all these I wrote, I only meant for you to prove me something otherwise. But knowing you, I doubt you would really do anything about it.

It only concludes in the end...You are just not that into me.

Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.

So long...Jason, so many times...You are breaking my heart again and again...and again.Not only you are not going to try to mend it, you are not EVEN thinking about mending it anyway.